79.9 %

Doesn't matter.

Not a thing to be mentioned.

Last time 79.6 % was a grain of astonishment.

This time was a shame, with the ridiculous miscalculation.

Even the gap is as small as 0.1, it only means that a lot more effort is required.

* I still do not deserve. Hehe ~ *

Masih terhinggap

There is this lovely flower bud, surrounded by many others. Obviously she's not the only one, yet there is this tiny butterfly, spotted her. Attracted by her natural scent, the pollinator try to make an approach slowly. Things do not work out for the first time, there's a barrier between them because the core of the flower bud is covered by her protective bud scales. He does not alight on the flower bud, over worrying that his little weight will burden her. So the butterfly flapping around the flower bud, patiently waiting for her to bloom ... Then a human being snapped a photo of the scene. Some say that this is such a beautiful sight, and I was having that thinking in my mind too.

Asclepias curassavica by ~~SpringLaurel

Did we just ignore the flower bud? Does somebody know how she feels?
Peace or romance, which one is demanded?

Too shallow and too logical in thinking.

Suddenly I don't know how to write anymore.

I prefer to talk now =P

Slipped again

Heard some gossips from here and there,

was acting like I don't want to care.

Genuine friends are mixing with hypocrites,

I'm not the one to judge and to criticize.

Sinister laughters beat the quiet sighs.

One show his sarcasm, another one hide his cries.

Found out some truths and some lies,

the fragile hope is going to die.

I'm not standing up and spoil the sight,

all I want is for you to be happy, in the blessing of Jesus Christ.

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Somehow, I have a change of mind after a talk with my friend, Lai:

One day I shall be there to correct this corruption, ain't letting go just like that, no more sitting behind.

* yea, maybe ~ *

Art

Ta-da!

Homemade bookmarks with delicate handcraft!

1 Corinthians 13 - Love

* Mystical red roses for Jessica *

Matthew 5 - Salt and Light

* Elegant light tower for Amabel *

* Others *

* ??? *

* I forgot to take pictures ... *

Last post was meant to make this post a ( big ) surprise, unfortunately only having photos of 2 out of the 5 designs. God loves you all.

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It feels weird that calling myself as artistic.

I do know some graphic stuff, I might be able to create something nice at the expense of excessive brain power and lotsss of time. But a glance at myself, skinny body shape with sakai dark skin, messy unmanaged hair, classical black thick frame glasses, outdated and sometimes silly outfit ... seriously not fashionable & unattractive. Not that creative in talking too, blame on my broken english, but the truth is I'm so lame even to utter in mother tongue mandarin/cantonese. Often it's too boring to talk with me, some simply ignore me, in the end I just keep quiet, although sometimes I really wanted to talk, to you.

Throughout the first 9 posts you can find some childish abstract fantasies about love, next you'll get entirely confused: What's with this guy? lonely bastard with no life? @@

So finally a post about myself now, only it sounds a little pathetic. Yea, I'm lonely but I'm not a bastard.

* lol, senseless blogging *

* ... I'm sincere with every post ok? *

Teaser

* Kekeke ~ *

Yes! It's a new day!

Leaving yesterday behind, it's like a joke but what matters is the prayers came true.

I'm not hiding, neither am exposing myself. I'm fine, and I hope you are the same.

Those who had found me, welcome to my blog!

* kekeke ~ *

This is still a very secret blog, shhh! ...

静态 ● Halt

A hasty footstep ceased,

intense conversations lapsed,

trembling emotion is suppressed.

My spirit is quiet,

endless hesitation stopped,

confusing doubts are relieved.

Worries no more,

unwanted fears disappeared,

angel's wings are in a calm rest.

The night is still,

my heart has peace.

Waves of restless urge are gone,

this violent mental agitation has halted.

Yet,

the love within will always be overwhelming.

♥ Jesus, ♥ you all

Lay Down Your Burden

Lay down your burden

I will carry you
I will carry you my child, my child
Lay down your burden

I will carry you
I will carry you my child, my child

Cause I can walk on water ...
Calm a restless sea
I've done a thousand things you've never done
And I'm really watching
While you struggle on your own
Call on my name, I'll come

Lay down your burden

I will carry you
I will carry you my child, my child
Lay down your burden

I will carry you
I will carry you my child, my child

I give vision to the blind
I can raise the dead
I've seen the darker side of hell
And I've returned
I've seen those sleepless night
And count every tear you cry
Some lessons hurt to learn

Lay down your burden

I will carry you
I will carry you my child, my child
Lay down your burden

I will carry you
I will carry carry you my child, my child

I will carry you my child, my child

I will carry you

Carry You - Amy Grant

Have you found my blog?

1 week has passed, so randomly I started this blog, only 5 unique-first-time visitors so far. ( Strangers or stalkers? )

So secretly adding new post, so quietly expressing my thoughts. So passive in the real world, so emotionally in here. All about you. For years I've done nothing, then you came and disrupt the routine. Never blog about myself all this while but I write for you here, with inability to cover my explosion of feelings towards you. Blog without public exposure because there are still fears, maybe either of us is not ready, maybe I just don't suit you, maybe you're thinking about someone else ... maybe maybe ~~

* listening to She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5 *

Deep thoughts throughout the week. Reevaluation of myself and my principle of life.

How's my social circle? Am I unapproachable?

How's my career? Has it been ruined by my obsession on trivial stuff?

What's wrong with my relationship with God? What took away the priority?

Am I truthful towards you? How much I know about love? I've got mesmerized with your character & your joyful smile. Also with your physical touch when you hold my hand ... what the, am I a pervert!? @@

It's a spurt of my psychological & spiritual growth. You've encouraged me so much for positive changes, my dear.

Have you found my blog? If you found it, you found my heart. ♥

使命 ● Guardian Angel

Dear friends, let's love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. - 1 John 4:7

* I can still be your Guardian Angel, can't I? *

but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. - Isaiah 40:31

* Can I walk with you again just like we did today? how about doing it everyday? *

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. - Proverbs 3:5-6

The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise and I am saved from my enemies. - Psalms 18:2-3

do not be anxious bout anything, but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your mind in christ Jesus. - Phil 4:6-7

* Here comes the doubt again. Has God planned it this way? Am I doing the right thing? Do I deserve you or you deserve better? *

Jesus wept. - John 11:35

* She told me, for what breaks your heart, breaks His heart. *

This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalms 118:24

* Goodnight! *

Thanks to all my CG friends.

Hi jiii !

Hi! have you had your dinner?

Let's go & eat, just you & me.

* no, not today ~ *

* lol ~ *

A little bout her ... 说说她。

Having a long chat with my dear buddy, Tim, on yesterday night, and it was really fun and nice talking to him. We share almost about everything since we've known each other, computer games lar, movies lar, study lar, bla bla ~ so this time we got into a more interesting, & more mature topic, hehe - the soulmate.

* Cheh! * You might response in that way. What's so serious bout this topic? Dating girl jek ma ~ Fine, I have no experience at all. I'm not homo definitely, no matter how you twist the fact you would never relate me with gay. Yet, afterall, I've never pak tuo before. Not really because of my lack of communication & social skill, it's the unusual mindset that get into the way.

In opting for the correct person, requirements are: comfortable outlook, not too fat, & most important, good attitude. That's my minimum lol. Yea as like other men, appearance always comes first. Somehow I have to obey my art-sense & the desire for perfection. Well, attitude & behaviour are the crucial parts. It's the magical spell that can turn anyone into angel or devil.

My arrogant demand for such an ideal partner leads to the hiding of my expression. To reject someone, I become emotionless so that she won't think too much. To a girl that I admire, I become emotionless, too, so that we won't simply fall into the relationship. Afraid that either she or I myself will regret. All in all I'm scare of being guilty for bringing damage to someone else.

She gives me a different thought. 2 years ago, my first sight of her is mesmerizing. I kept myself silent, as usual, since then. Maybe that's the time God planned for me to discover her inner beauty during our first year course. She is so inspiring, just like what she mentioned before, the soulmate should be inspiring. * emmm ... * I feel a bit crazy when the urge to approach her arises.

Oh God my shepherd, watch over your lamb now. A bit too much.

Thanks buddy for the talk ~

* Sigh ~ bad day ... *

The Flash

I will have an animated flash blog!! ...

Believe me, it's gonna be awesome.

颓废 ● Begin

What ( the heck! ) is wrong with me?

* Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ..................... *

The strong feeling of emptyness had occupied my soul for the whole day. Can't even be organized for a single minute. Spending time for random stuff without purpose. Blood thrusting upward through the carotid artery in the way that is able to feel it even without palpating. Both of my tired eyes are seeing transparent, floating ... err ... things ~ ... * sigh * and of course the tiny little text on the books. Oh yea, currently this is waste of time, too, starting a blog just before the day of upcoming test.

Can't stop thinking of you since last week. Already a person who is been troubled by distraction from tons of junk things ( CRS's critic ), I've gone worse with addiction on you. But sorry to say that, I keep denying it. Too weak to be the man who can inspire you with hopes & future, for now.

Once again failed to do what i should've done, yet God is there watching over me. Please grant me peace, so that I can get away from the evil, getting over my sin and * Hieyaa! * metamorphose into something better.

Thanks to Keng Keng, for inspiring me with this blog title. ^^

Keep hiding keep hiding, nobody that I know will dig out this blog, kekeke ~

JY